My Recent Unfortunate Realisation

A few days ago, I had a regrettable realisation. I give up way to quickly and easily. I can only wonder how I hadn’t noticed it sooner. And the ironic thing about this is that it is something that I never thought would affect me. By this I mean I give up because something becomes challenging. I sense a roadblock and rather than work around it, I give up by literally giving up or losing motivation. Let me show you a few examples of what I mean.

When I lived in Miami, I was into a girl named Nina. I asked her on a date and it went well. I really wanted to go out with her again. A couple days later, I sat next to her at a religious meeting (Institute for those Mormons reading this). She didn’t really pay me any attention. I figured she just wasn’t into me like I was into her. A year or so later, I was preparing to leave Miami. She, I, and another friend Cristy were talking and I mentioned the above experience. She seemed surprised and told me I gave up too soon.

Fast forward nearly a decade. I just have to look at my current existence to realise that most things I wanted done by now have ended up on an eternal back burner. For instance, I wanted to have book 2 finished by now: nowhere close. I wanted to have a business further along: hung up on one detail for 6 months now. I wanted to work in the fitness industry: had some challenges and gave up. How about learning Spanish: no bueno. I hit road blocks, I lose motivation, my energy fizzles out. I have no idea why this keep happening, or why I am just realising it. It has become the norm in a life that was once filled with dreams. Now it is filled with premature endings.

“When it is obvious that the goals cannot be reached, don’t adjust the goals, adjust the action steps.” – Confucius

So what does this realisation mean for me going forward? It means I have to stop making excuses. I have so many resources around me to achieve whatever it is I want. I have Jeffry and coworkers to help me learn Spanish. There are so many places I can go during my lunch break to work on my book. I have every opportunity to write that one stupid e-mail to further my business idea. The only thing stopping me from realising my dreams and ambitions is ME! I am unwilling to make the sacrifices I need to do what needs to be done.

“You control your future, your destiny. What you think about comes about. By recording your dreams and goals on paper, you set in motion the process of becoming the person you most want to be. Put your future in good hands – your own.”  – Mark Victor Hansen

From this moment forward, I am committing myself to moving forward. I will sit down and write the things I want to have done and when I want them done by. Naturally, I will be posting them on here so I can be held accountable. I don’t care if the goal is to finish a video game or save $10,000 by the end of the year, I will achieve it. I want my next realisation to be that my life has become one of greatness, not mediocrity or regret. Thank you all for your love and support. I pray that by this time next year, my story will be long into a beautiful new chapter. Much love 🙂

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